One Week Limit

hahahahahhahaha....
i said in my last post dat i will post the full story of the bbq last week.....
i dunno how now....
its weird....
i only cn say it went well.....
mayb after a week the impact wasnt as bombastic as it was.....

i juz found out y i dun post blog regularly....
but dis is juz an estimation....
i dun post blogs daily....
bcuz no one has been reading it......
y posting when u noe no one is reading it?
its like writing to myself.....
but its nuthg bad really....
i'll post it juz 4 me 2 read back wat i've done.....
well....
part of wat i've done.....
its like a diary....
wait....
i'm a guy....
so its like a journal....
(girls cll it diary....guys cll it journal)...

Two Weeks Notice

wooohooooo!!!
my holidays almost done.....
nuthg big happened really....
juz the bbq was a total success!!!...
evry1 had fun.....

i'll post an almost-full story of it l8er.....
i dun hv internet access yet....

and for 4 days i hv 2 b in shah alam 2 look after the cats...
(parents in medan)....
so for 2 days i hv 2 ulang-alik from shah alam to IIC.....
damn....
dats gonna b tiresome....

i'll post a new...post...or is it clld blog?...next week....
after i get my all internet access back....
(being back in my room i mean).....
till then....
l8er....

Official Post

its official!!!!
its hard to keep a blog....
for a moment there i thought i never had a blog....

wat 2 say....
wat 2 say....
its my finals week...
studying and exam-ing.....

planning 2 do a bbq wit a couple of frens....
since uitm frens are all holidaying.....
y not make a lil get 2 gether aight??
hvnt comfirmed yet though....

now dat my internet is back....
i'll TRY and update my blog....
juz dun get ur hopes up....

....Stop Hoping....

aku tak percaya lagi
akan apa yg kau beri
aku terdampar disini
tersudut menunggu mati

aku tak percaya lagi
akan guna matahari
yg dulu mampu terangi
sudut gelap hati ini

aku berhenti berharap
dan menunggu datang gelap
sampai nanti suatu saat
tak ada cinta kudapat

mengapa ada derita
bila bahagia tercipta
mengapa ada sang hitam
bila putih menyenangkan

aku pulang
tanpa dendam
kuterima
kekalahanku
aku pulang
tanpa dendam
kusalutkan kemenanganmu

kau ajarkan aku bahagia
kau ajarakan aku derita
kau tunjukan aku bahagia
kau tunjukan aku derita
kau berikan aku bahagia
kau berikan aku derita

A List

wow....
seriously its hard 2 keep a blog....
all kinds of thgs happend 2 me in one day...
but i cant seem 2 transfer dem in my blog...
i 4get abt it the instant the pc is on....
hahahaha

last week....
i had a lil chat wit a fren of mine....
the topic was dreams and goals....
she asked me wat r my dreams n goals....
.............
*blank*.....
i couldnt think of any!!!
i'm not saying dat i DONT hv goals n dreams....
i juz cnt THINK of any!!!
hahahha
so since then i started thinking....
(took two hours from my daily routine)
y DONT i hv a list of my goals??
but like usual....
my thoughts turned into a warm chicken shit(if u guys dun get it...u r not malay)

right now the list is ACTUALLY existing....
not in a hardcopy or anythg....
but in my thoughts....
so far i only got 5....
the other 101 listed r thgs like....
"wear shoes" "clean glasses" "clean my room" etc.....
the 5s are the BIG ones....
hahahaha....

but anyway....
its just a list....

Cant Get Perfect Anxiety

damn!!!
juz went through my results for semester 2....
damn it!!
no A....
n not even 3.0+....
CGPA lg la!!!

damn it!!!
i dun bliv i didnt get A for eng!!!
i wrote HALF a book in essay section!!!
(figuratively speaking).....
n finance???
management???
obviously the lecturer put me in her black list....
i ws last a few seconds she still put me as absent!!!
for dat i got warning letters....
n my mom jumped 2 conclusion saying dat i skipped de class.....
damn it!!

my GPA n CGPA for semester 2 in IIC sux!!!
semester 3....
watch out!!!
four flat coming ur way!!!
ooooooooooooooosk!!!!!
*all fired up*
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARGH!!!!

Failure Taste Bittersweet

on de 10th of april 2007!!!!
i failed my motor jpj test for the 3rd time!!!
for the same freakin reason...
jatoh kat titi!!!....

its funny really...
time practice...
mayb out of 20 tries....
3 kali je jatoh....
maser test...
1 try...
1 fall...
how sad....

ader dis drvg teacher ni said....
"rezeki tak datang kot..."
dalam hati nk aje ckp....
"3 kali dh fail....bukan tak datang tu...rezeki TANAK datang!..."

dat day i found out dat i get panic very easily...
n when i do...
i cnt do anythg right....
hahahahaha
maser naik motor tu...
bukan main confident....
den maser kat atas titi tu....
ttbe kuar muker org2....
smer ckp....
"JATOH!!"
den jatoh.....
hahahaha

well... nvm....
now tgh pk nk amik lg ker tak test jpj motor...
*thinking*

1st stepping stone

dis blog is created by me juz 4 the sake of trying....
i'm de type of guy who keeps watever dat is bothering me inside....
n let the lion out, sumtimes, to the wrong victims....

so dis blog....
is an escape for me.....
anythg dat i wanna say...
i'll post it in here....
i rarely keep track of wats goin on in my life....
apetah lg record it
mayb dis blog is my 1st stepping stone in doin so...

but dis is juz a trial....
lets see how long dis continues....